I Want To Become Mother’s Joy Forever
I heard that God is love, but I felt like He was always giving me harsh punishment. After parting ways with my parents early in my life, I had to rush into the battle of life earlier than other people my age. I lived my life diligently, but I always got hurt by people. I could not understand why my life was such an ordeal, while even those who were more incapable of doing things and were lazier than me were living a happy life.
Whenever I felt a sense of helplessness, I earnestly sought God. I visited every denomination which people recommended me to go, no matter what kind of religion it was. I attended a church and I also once belonged to a religion that worships the spirits of our ancestors. However, nothing in my life changed or improved. I finally had had enough and started to complain. I even cried out to God, “If You will not help me, please take my life.”
The World Mission Society Church of God (WMSCOG) was located around a supermarket which I would occasionally go to. Since it had a very unique name and it also had no cross, I wondered what kind of church it was. At that time, I heard that one of my acquaintances was attending the Church of God. I followed her to the Church, half filled with curiosity and half filled with resignation, wondering if God really exists.
At the beginning, I could hardly accept the words of truth or the existence of Elohim God because everything was completely different from what I had learned. However, while studying God’s words little by little, I became convinced that the Church of God was definitely different than other churches which I had attended. God was really there in the Church of God as the name signifies – the true God whom I could not find anywhere else.
On the day when I was born again into a new life, I felt like I was newly born after all my sins had been washed away. ‘Now I am really a daughter of God.’ As I thought of this, I felt an overwhelming feeling running through my whole body from the top of my head to the soles of my feet. I had never thought that I was so precious. I felt like I should no longer treat myself with contempt or speak bad words or think evil thoughts, because I am a daughter of the holy God.
It has already been a year since I started to dwell in the arms of Father and Mother. My soul has become healthy like green leaves that have received lots of warm sunshine. The world that only seemed dark is now so bright. Now I can confidently say that I am happy.
I am thankful for everything. I give thanks to God for finding me when I was longing for God’s love most earnestly and for allowing me to realize the truth that so many people do not understand. I am grateful even for my past life which was just tough and painful. Since I have gone through a lot of pain and suffering, I can now realize what true happiness is and how precious this happiness is. My heart is so overwhelmed with gratitude that I cannot fully express it enough.
In a word, the truth is a lifeline. Since the lifeline has been made of Father’s sacrifice and Mother’s love, it will never break. I want to give the lifeline to those who are holding a rotten rope without knowing when it will break. I will preach the gospel as wisely and boldly just as other members in Zion. And as Mother is my joy, I also want to become Mother’s joy forever. Father Ahnsahnghong and God the Mother, thank You for the calling me into Your truth and bestowing upon me the great gift of salvation.
SM Park, Korea