Fill Up After Throwing Away-Christ Ahnsahnghong & God the Mother (WMSCOG)
From the time when I got married until now while my children are attending middle school, I have moved once, twice, three times … quite a lot because of my job, my house or things like that. These days, the moving company helps out with everything from packing to arranging, which makes moving a lot easier. Despite that, moving requires much work. One of them is sorting things out and getting rid of the junk in advance. It’s because I want a fresh start as I move to a new home.
Whenever I organize the rooms, I find loads of stuff to throw away. Two or three big garbage bags filled are the minimum. Even after getting rid of many things, I can still find a similar amount of trash again the next time I move. I keep belongings at the thought that I might need them later though I do not need them now. However, in the end many things are thrown away.
A few days ago, I watched a TV program and found out that keeping things can be an illness if it is excessive. The program showed some people who kept everything inside their houses without throwing them away, and helped cure them. At first when I heard that that kind of people could be cured, I thought it was an exaggeration. However, as I saw the people who stacked their houses with so many things, from the front door up to the ceiling, without a spot to step on, it seemed a bit much. Pretty drink bottles, shoddy free gifts, broken home appliances and even the wrapping paper of food . . . all the things that were placed layer upon layer were almost like a pile of garbage. There were even lots of things that the owner didn’t remember when they were put there. When I saw their houses, which were too messy to believe that somebody was living in, my jaw dropped open with surprise.
The people, who were obsessed with garbage that only took up much space, didn’t get along well with others. They could not stay with their family members and most of them lived alone.
“These are too good to throw away!”
The reason they could not get rid of their trash was the same.
I was relieved for a moment, thinking that I wasn’t that serious. Then I felt that their excuses for clinging to useless, trivial things was not unfamiliar. ‘Isn’t that what’s happening in my mind?’ Hatred, jealousy, complaint, vain greed… Though they should not be there at all, I stick to them with every possible excuse so I don’t have to throw them away. It may be because of that that I have not achieved my dream to be born again and participate in God’s divine nature, even though I eagerly want to do so.
Although I would like to drink cold water, if my glass is filled with lukewarm water, I will not be able to pour cold water in it. If I want to fill it with something that I want, the first thing I need to do is to thoroughly empty what has already existed.
God Elohim gives us abundantly if we ask Him, but there is one thing that I should do before I ask Him. I should have done it before, but I delayed it for so long. It is to throw away my old bad habits. From now on, I will remove all my bad habits resolutely. And then, I will fill my cleansed heart with the Holy Spirit that God pours out upon us. After that? I will add to my faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, love, so that I will participate in God’s divine nature. It makes me feel good just by imagining it.
MJ Kim from Korea